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 1) How old were you when you started self harming?


9 Years Old


2) How often do you self harm?


I use to do it daily when I was younger, now it seems like I do it in binges.
  Like hardcore for 3-5 days, take a break and then back at it again.


3) What method of self harm do you use?


Cutting mostly.


4) Do you think that you need professional help?


I am getting it now and have been for awhile.


5) Are you trying to stop self harming?


Yes, I am just scared that even if I want to, need to, that it is not enough
  and that I fear I am not ready.


6) Does anyone know about your self harm?


Yes, my family all does, my friends all do, my therapist of course. However I
  started at age nine, as said above and it was almost 12 years before someone
  found out.


7) How many years have you been self harming?


Whoa, until I did the math I had no idea. Self Harm = 24 years.


8) If you self harm, were you abused or neglected (either as a child
  or later in life)?



Yes sexually abused for many years.


9) Would you label yourself as emo?


Nope, not ever close. P.S. For all you uneducated people Emo doesn’t not =
  Cutter/Self Harmer and it goes the other way, Cutter/Self Harmer doen not= Emo.
  This addiction shows no race, creed, religion, lack of religon. It can and does
  affect anyone.


10) Do others label you as emo?


AHA HA HA!! Not that I am aware of and if they do, it sounds like a personal
  problem they need help with, for being judgemental. And they say I have all the
  problems. Whatev! lol


11) Why did you start?


To distract from the fact that my uncle was molesting me/raping me. Giving me
  something other then the abuse to think and feel about.


12) Where do you self harm?


Wrists, arms, thighs.


13) What do you use to self harm yourself?


Blades…and in my opinon this is one of the not so important questions around
  this addiction, Im just sayin’.


14) Do you think you can stop?


Honestly, I am afraid to say it but no. I just think I will have times and
  periods in my life where I don’t do it and other times when I will keep falling
  back on it. But I am hopeful one day will be the last time.


15) Do you want to?


Yes, when I am rational, and no when I am insane.


To those of you who are hurting out there, remember there is hope, there is
  help:


http://www.selfinjury.com/

6/10/2012 11:48:15 pm

I've been cutting seance I was. !2 I didn't know how to stop... I still think I need to punish myself for being sexually abuse at the age of 13 and 14. I feel like it's all my fault. And if I could I would show you a picture of my scars. there about 1 or 2 centamiters wide. I never got stiches because I was to afraid to show people. If your a cutter and you want to talk about it... I'll deffinetly listen. Hit me up @ [email protected]

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sophie
3/27/2014 07:03:26 am

I self harm really bad and have tried to commit surecide but got caught im seeing a counciler but its not helping :(

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Valynn
6/28/2012 01:18:12 am

Thanks so much for sharing and your positive words.

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adrien
1/19/2013 02:13:58 am

i was not sexullay ubused im just a fuckin dumb ass with a bad addicton i cut i stoped for about two mounths and started agian i have attempted suicide and i dont rember the last day a didnt want to kill myself but my friends keep me alive idk how much longer they will care though some have given up on me and dont know what to say anymore people at school like me one of my best guy friends likes me but he probly wouldnt if he knew that a cut and that i suicidal

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Sierra
2/14/2013 02:30:07 pm

Hey look I self harm too and I've never been abused or anything so I feel your pain. I'm so sorry to hear about that:(

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Valynn
1/21/2013 02:40:41 am

First and foremost you are not a dumb ass. You have an addiction issue and it is beyond difficult to deal with sometimes. I know. I am here if you ever need to talk, you can find all my contact info on the contact page. I have been suicidal on the regular myself and know what that can feel like and how it consumes you every waking moment at times. if nothing else Adrien, know you are not alone. We all have our demons.

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Samantha
6/17/2013 01:25:35 pm

I was never abused@ home , but at school, forget about it! I started to cut when I was 10 and I'm trying 2 stop but it seems impossible

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malinda
8/13/2013 07:34:57 am

I was never abused sexually or mentally or physically either, but I feel lonely like nobody likes me. I started a few months ago and I'm only 13. I am trying to stop, but it seems like its the only thing I can think about. I have six cuts and I try to keep them covered so nobody can see them. I don't know how to tell anyone so I can get help. I feel ashamed that I did it, but then I want to do it again. its so confusing:(

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Valynn
8/15/2013 01:14:25 am

Malinda,

Self harm is an addiction and even though I believe we are all strong as we try to get through our issues it is important that we don't do it alone. If you can find a support person or someone you trust like a teacher it will help you to stay self harm free. We all need help sometimes and that is never something to be ashamed of. I am hoping you are able to find someone to trust to help support you through getting things back together in your life, remember you are worth the effort, stay beautiful!

Valynn
8/15/2013 01:16:52 am

Samantha don't be fooled by the things people and our own thoughts and feelings view as impossible. It is very much possible. Please give yourself the much deserved gift of not giving up! Like any addiction sometimes it takes many tries to finally get it, when we relapse and self harm it is a chance to look at the things we still need to change and work on. Take care beautiful!

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Lauren
8/13/2013 06:07:28 am

I have been clean for a month, but I crave it like crazy. I have about seven cuts but they are all long and hard to hide. I cut when my dad yells at me or I become angry. I have not started again thank God:)

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Valynn
8/15/2013 01:12:07 am

Lauren with any addiction it is going to take time to get past the cravings for sure. I believe it can be done though. Be gentle with yourself. And yes thank God you have not because you are worth so much more. =)

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saira
12/28/2013 10:20:56 am

I started cutting when I was 10, just turned 20.
10 years of self harm... I didn't know what it was or whether it had a name. It just made me feel better.
Originally it was an attempt to kill myself, thought like you see on movies I'll cut my wrists and collapse on the floor and bleed to death but I was young and it obviously didn't work like that. But it felt nice. It made me feel better.
I started because I was the only daughter and had two brothers and I was neglected, everyone loved them but I was the forgotten child. Then I got sexually abused by my grandad. Then physically abused by my boyfriend and the physically abused by my present boyfriend.
Now getting forced into a marriage by my mum due to emotional blackmail.
I feel dead on the inside self harm makes me feel alive.
I can't stop... may be I don't even want to stop... I don't know... I just need to feel pain... to know that am alive.
:(

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nikki
9/29/2014 09:09:32 pm

I been harming my self for a long time I do it to the point it bleeds on the harms or everywhere and the I nearly sudide side and the teacher stop me when I grabbed a scissors and they tried to take it of me and they evenchey they took it away from me. I havnt hurt myself fr long I just take the scabs of my arm and I dont like myself so much to the point it bleeds then after I done it it makes me happy. need help txt me back

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