I can not believe it. Something so scary, weird, and exciting happened today! I heard Bethie, my 4 year old alter. And not from a distance either. I could hear her sweet voice. This makes me cry so hard cause I love Bethie so very much. She is my giggle girl and I can only dream of holding this sweet little angel. We sat side by side for the first time ever. She let me in. She let me be with her unfrozen. Together. It only last a few mins but meant the world to me. It warmed my heart. And I got to share this moment with the my therapist "Beautiful Spirit". I think because she told Bethie to talk to me and that it was okay to talk to me she did. Cause many, wait no, all to my knowledge, trust Beautiful Spirit. I am so glad Bethie got to spend time with her today. She really loved that she got her a hot chocolate. That is Bethie's most favorite treat! Beautiful Spirit means so much to her. She makes her feel safe. She makes many alters feel safe. She was the first person that Tracey (9) ever spoke out loud to. I think it has to do with the fact that we feel such a spiritual connection with this wonderful woman. She treats us with such loving respect and we all hope we never lose her for years to come. After such a hard day it was so nice to have some of her time and her gentle care. I hope she knows just how much we care for her.
Again, OH MY!! Bethie and me together for the first time ever. This is so scary exciting. It takes time to get use to for sure. The only other alter I can talk with is Sarah (22) and we don't always get along so well. My sweet little Bethie likes me, perhaps even loves me back. This, this could be the beginning of something wonderful. I am so scared as I keep saying but am told this is all good stuff that we are starting to connect inside. However, I know the reality is that I am going to be given information sometimes that I don't want to see. That it is not always going to be fun and exciting.
However, if I just take it one day at a time and go super slow it may be okay in the end. I am not a stranger to up and downs for sure.
Oh oh oh and also Beautiful Spirit said anyone of us can come to group now, even Bethie!! This is too awesome and cool of her. Wow, this woman is too cool. I am so glad that my connection with Bethie included Beautiful Spirit today. I couldn't think of anyone else I would rather share that moment with than her.
Thanks Beautiful Spirit for a positive moment to end the day on. You rock! And we are blessed for having you in our lives. Big Hugs!
Again, OH MY!! Bethie and me together for the first time ever. This is so scary exciting. It takes time to get use to for sure. The only other alter I can talk with is Sarah (22) and we don't always get along so well. My sweet little Bethie likes me, perhaps even loves me back. This, this could be the beginning of something wonderful. I am so scared as I keep saying but am told this is all good stuff that we are starting to connect inside. However, I know the reality is that I am going to be given information sometimes that I don't want to see. That it is not always going to be fun and exciting.
However, if I just take it one day at a time and go super slow it may be okay in the end. I am not a stranger to up and downs for sure.
Oh oh oh and also Beautiful Spirit said anyone of us can come to group now, even Bethie!! This is too awesome and cool of her. Wow, this woman is too cool. I am so glad that my connection with Bethie included Beautiful Spirit today. I couldn't think of anyone else I would rather share that moment with than her.
Thanks Beautiful Spirit for a positive moment to end the day on. You rock! And we are blessed for having you in our lives. Big Hugs!
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